RELEASE MY INNERCHILD IN YEAR

MENTAL HEALTH DEPRESSION 

I have a mental health depression every night my anxiety keep attacking me and

I don't know how to deal it have a poor deit

I don't care about my self because of my

sensitive thinking like who cares about you

and the day started when i scrolled

i see in tiktok many teenager like me having a wonderful relationship in their life

and me i'm just a boy who wait in real love

my mother support's me in my goal and 

relationship but still I can't manage to be happy i just missed that day my ugly smile but is legit not fake because now in my age i can smile but it doesn't mean 

I'M HAPPY I FEEL NUMB FULL OF ANGER

but i hold it back because i don't recognize my self when im angry mood swings etc

shit* happen nothings new nothings new

getting rejected many ways and many times and the day my father died my depression getting worse i act that im ok but still i wanna open up but im to scared because my sadness in my brain chest heart all my nerves quickly I've been lay on my head and started crying when im open up AHAHAHA i created this because many teenager like my suffer in mental health

I'm not a bad guy and person im a sweet guy and humble guy that who scared of fighting i respect my parents but still i wanna have release my innerchild in my body because i have a dream i've been playing in my self and suddenly he said to me Brother Desmond i know you not feeling alright in many years and many months but you good at promise right?

we play hide in seek for a long dream but can you find me and i've going in a different place when you caught me in hide and seek i said YEAH SURE NO PROBLEM. still i don't find my self because my missing pieces is gone hard to find I can't heald my self because I don't how to 

and they call my self a great pretender

now days and this day i've felt new emotions in my chest brain and I'm tired of it i wanna cry but I don't wanna get caught crying like i wanna tell a story and something exited going in my day but no one who listens so i just keep it for a topic one day.

Being a lonely extrovert and introvert

is hard because you can't choose how to be matured and happy...